I don't know how to say this

   

 I have been debating about posting this for months now, I just don't know how to say it. I don't want to deter anyone from getting help and I don't want to seem uncaring so this is difficult for me to post.
    Maybe I opened myself up to this by talking about suicide prevention so much. I want people to seek help when they or a loved one is feeling suicidal. I want you to talk to someone, see a therapist, or call the suicide hotline. I want you to stay alive and keep going. If you need to, I hope you go to a crisis unit and let them help you get stabilized. I just can't be that person.
    I'm not a licensed therapist. I'm not a professional.
     I plan to work in suicide prevention but there's a difference between having set hours to talk about suicide and being messaged at home during my personal time. I'm haunted by the fact that I could not save Zuka. How do you think it would feel if I couldn't save you as well?
     I hate to post this. I feel like I have to for my own peace and emotional well-being. I don't want to hurt anyone but also, I need to take care of myself. Please understand that it hurts me to write this.
    If Zuka's friends or family need help, I will gladly help you find resources!

Please be well! Take care of you and if you need help please talk to someone you trust, or call 1-800-273-TALK or visit the website for more options www.suicidepreventionlifeline.org

Lots of Love!